Life seems to be taking on new meaning since I started training. I just recently told my lunch group that
marathoning and fundraising are my two new hobbies. Although I’
ve been a bit remiss in my weekly trainings. I only ran about half what I was supposed to last week. It really makes a huge difference when I am running with someone versus running by myself. It’s been very hard to keep motivated without Sheri to spur me on. I have to find the motivation within myself because I can’t always be sure that I have a running partner. No wonder I don’t have the stamina and endurance yet, because I haven’t been as consistent as I need to be. I will have another chance though, since I just signed up for PF Chang’s Rock N Roll Marathon, which will be here in Phoenix in January. While it was my goal to just cross the finish line for my first half, it is my goal to improve my speed for PF Chang’s and would love to finish averaging 12 minute miles, currently I’m averaging 15 with 13 being my best so far. So I have to get all my weekly runs in to truly build up my stamina.
This past Saturday was to be my longest run yet. 12 miles, it would have been the most that I would run until the actual marathon. I set my alarm for 4:15 to meet the team at 5:30, my alarm went off and I promptly hit the snooze button, or so I thought. I must have accidentally hit the dismiss button instead of snooze because I
didn’t wake up until 4:59. Crap. I still had to get dressed, eat a little breakfast, drink 12-18 oz of water, and drive to our meeting location. I drove at break neck speed, thank goodness no cops were around, and made it to practice by 5:39. I was the last to arrive and we got started with the warm-up as soon as I got there. The morning was cool, and a great temperature for my long run. It started off good enough, I started first as usual and determined to increase my pace to 5:1. The trail headed west on the canals and there were quite a few “hills”, I use quotes because they
weren’t true hills like South Mountain but they were definite inclines and declines. I passed my first opportunity to use a bathroom, about a mile in. Thinking that I would have more opportunities, I waited not feeling any urges. Well of course three miles in I felt that urge and I had to go off the trail to find one. Darn runners trot! Well it was downhill from there. My stomach started cramping big time, and I felt a serious groin pull so I decided to walk it off, not wanting to cause any permanent damage that would prevent me from running the actual marathon. And every time I tried to start running again, my groin
wouldn’t hear of it. Eventually the groin pain finally went away but now my toes were so numb that it felt like the skin was being peeled off the tops of my toes. It was the oddest, most painful sensation. So I walked and walked and walked with a few attempts here and there to try to run. Today was not going to be the day to move to my 5:1 pace. I had about three more miles to go when I ran into one of my captains and she saw that I wasn't doing so well, although she was running the opposite way, she was almost done with her run, she promptly turned around and walked with me. She suggested that if I was in so much pain that I should turn around and not complete my mileage for the day. I was hesitant since I only had a few more miles to go and I had never not finished one of the team practices. I walked a bit further, feeling that odd painful sensation in my toes. And then I had a meltdown. As I was telling Kristi how important it was for me to finish and thinking off all the people that I was running for because they
couldn’t run, I just started crying and felt guilty that I
couldn’t finish my measly 12 miles for my honorees who are fighting for their lives. If I
couldn’t do 12 miles, how did I expect to do 13.1 in three weeks. I let myself be defeated and I felt horrible. Thankfully for Kristi she assured me that everyone has horrible runs and she shared with me one of her experiences of when she
wasn’t able to complete one of her runs and actually had to have the coach come pick her up in a car. This made me feel a bit better and I chose to turn around instead of fighting it out and perhaps causing some permanent damage that
wouldn’t allow me to run in San Diego.
I should also mention that I saw my podiatrist earlier in the week who said that my toes
shouldn’t be going numb like they are now that I have the correct shoes and orthotics and it may be possible nerve damage. Dr.
Forman made another adjustment to my
orthotics and told me to call him if my toes got numb again. I have an appointment to get my nerves tested this Friday. I’ll keep you all posted. Thank you for keeping up with my blog and donating! I couldn't have done it without you guys!